Seriously?

I guess wide-angle Wednesday gets another post because I just need to vent. 

So, I had everything planned out.  I was going to run my first 10K on June 1st, just in time to submit it for my time when I registered for the Princess Half Marathon on June 11th, when registration opens.  You need to submit at least an official 10K time to be placed correctly.  For those of you that don't know the way it works, there are corrals that you are placed in A-H (etc) based on how fast/slow you are.  I won't bore you with details, but the closer to the front corrals you are, the better.  It also helps with spacing out so many people at different levels.  I wouldn't want to be in one of the last corrals because I would be weaving in and around tons of walkers and people slower than me.  I also wouldn't want to be in Corral A and slow people down that are faster than me.  

Anyway...

I live in a very rural area,  I'm actually surprised that we have races at all, but we do have a few.  To give you an idea of how few people in this area run, I won my age division on my first 5K last fall, running a 35 minute 5K! (this is pretty slow)  I had found a 10K listed for June 1st and although they didn't have registration open yet, they had a 5K/10K last year and it was listed as just "not registering yet".  I emailed the event coordinator with absolutely no response.  *sigh*  The chip-timing company that handles registration did respond to my emails, however, and said that they  were just finishing up some details and would be opening registration by the end of the month.  Yay!

Last night I got excited when I hopped over to the site (for the 5th time that day) and found registration OPEN finally!!!!  Yay!...or not.  Read closer, Karen.  ONLY a 5K this year.  womp. womp.  WHAT???  Seriously?

Find another, right?  Well, my job does not lend to driving 100 miles on a Saturday morning for a race.  My busiest times for petsitting are my weekends and it is nearly impossible in the summer months for me to have a Saturday morning off.  I did find a race though. 

June 8th (sheesh, calling that close for the date I want to have that 10K finished!) I found a 10K in St. Louis, 100 miles from me.  Rey and Savannah said they would cover my morning petsits that day, if I have any (which I will) and Dallas is on board to head in with me and run.  Since my Mom lives in St. Louis, she will likely even come to cheer us on.  So why do I have butterflies just thinking about it and feel kind of like this:

I cannot seem to pull the trigger and register us, I have been training for this  run and I know I will be ready, but NOW I'm terrified???  What gives here?  I know part of it is the unknown.  I was comfortable with running a 10K in my town because it's close, convenient, and there didn't seem like a lot of pressure since I know many people in this area are beginners like me.   I seriously feel like I'm going to have a panic attack just sitting here typing this.  I cannot imagine what I'm going to be like when I get to the Half???

Someone talk some sense into me.  This race is at the right time, my work will be covered, my mom can be there, AND there is bling!  (the races out here don't usually have any bling)

There is one other 10K in October in our area and I could email my submission to Disney in hopes that my corral will get changed, but I'm concerned that they will cancel that one and make it a 5K just like they did this one, so I really think I need to do this run.

Oh and to add insult to injury this morning and my utter disbelief, I looked outside and saw SNOW falling.  SNOW.  It's almost May?  WHERE is spring?? I have a feeling we are just going to skip spring and jump right to summer this year. 

SERIOUSLY.