I guess wide-angle Wednesday gets another post because I just need to vent.
So, I had everything planned out. I was going to run my first 10K on June 1st, just in time to submit it for my time when I registered for the Princess Half Marathon on June 11th, when registration opens. You need to submit at least an official 10K time to be placed correctly. For those of you that don't know the way it works, there are corrals that you are placed in A-H (etc) based on how fast/slow you are. I won't bore you with details, but the closer to the front corrals you are, the better. It also helps with spacing out so many people at different levels. I wouldn't want to be in one of the last corrals because I would be weaving in and around tons of walkers and people slower than me. I also wouldn't want to be in Corral A and slow people down that are faster than me.
Anyway...
I live in a very rural area, I'm actually surprised that we have races at all, but we do have a few. To give you an idea of how few people in this area run, I won my age division on my first 5K last fall, running a 35 minute 5K! (this is pretty slow) I had found a 10K listed for June 1st and although they didn't have registration open yet, they had a 5K/10K last year and it was listed as just "not registering yet". I emailed the event coordinator with absolutely no response. *sigh* The chip-timing company that handles registration did respond to my emails, however, and said that they were just finishing up some details and would be opening registration by the end of the month. Yay!
Last night I got excited when I hopped over to the site (for the 5th time that day) and found registration OPEN finally!!!! Yay!...or not. Read closer, Karen. ONLY a 5K this year. womp. womp. WHAT??? Seriously?
Find another, right? Well, my job does not lend to driving 100 miles on a Saturday morning for a race. My busiest times for petsitting are my weekends and it is nearly impossible in the summer months for me to have a Saturday morning off. I did find a race though.
June 8th (sheesh, calling that close for the date I want to have that 10K finished!) I found a 10K in St. Louis, 100 miles from me. Rey and Savannah said they would cover my morning petsits that day, if I have any (which I will) and Dallas is on board to head in with me and run. Since my Mom lives in St. Louis, she will likely even come to cheer us on. So why do I have butterflies just thinking about it and feel kind of like this:
I cannot seem to pull the trigger and register us, I have been training for this run and I know I will be ready, but NOW I'm terrified??? What gives here? I know part of it is the unknown. I was comfortable with running a 10K in my town because it's close, convenient, and there didn't seem like a lot of pressure since I know many people in this area are beginners like me. I seriously feel like I'm going to have a panic attack just sitting here typing this. I cannot imagine what I'm going to be like when I get to the Half???
Someone talk some sense into me. This race is at the right time, my work will be covered, my mom can be there, AND there is bling! (the races out here don't usually have any bling)
There is one other 10K in October in our area and I could email my submission to Disney in hopes that my corral will get changed, but I'm concerned that they will cancel that one and make it a 5K just like they did this one, so I really think I need to do this run.
Oh and to add insult to injury this morning and my utter disbelief, I looked outside and saw SNOW falling. SNOW. It's almost May? WHERE is spring?? I have a feeling we are just going to skip spring and jump right to summer this year.
SERIOUSLY.
I hear you on the fear of the unknown/pressure aspect. I have SUCH a hard time with this with so many things. I'm so terrified of not being good enough that sometimes it's easier not to try. I wish I had some magic words to help you with that but the best I've come up with is "fake it till you make it" which sometimes works but other times I still find myself paralyzed by fear. If it helps just know that I have faith in you!
ReplyDeleteThank you, my friend. I have until May 5th to register, so I know I'll bite the bullet and just fake it til I make it...but so scared! And, I'm more scared b/c it's not like just going into a new situation, I have to RUN and PERFORM! I'm afraid I'm going to be so nervous, I'm going to barf or faint or something! LOL
DeleteYou won't be completely out of your element- you've got Dallas with you! The unknown is always scary, but it's also exciting! I always get butterflies before a race, even if I've run it before. I try to bottle them up and use them to my advantage. :)
ReplyDeleteAlso, I believe that the proof of time policy is changing for the runDisney events in 2014. You won't be able to submit a proof of time change at the expo anymore and there will be a deadline (varies by race) to submit any changes via email.
Thank you Kim! You are right, Dallas will be with me, at least I won't be alone!
DeletePull the trigger. register your badass self for that race.
ReplyDeletedon't let fear or uncertainty stop you.
OMG, you guys are so awesome! I did it! I pulled the trigger! No turning back now!
Deleteyay! so excited for you!
DeleteKeep calm and run on, girl. You got this! Seriously- sounds like it's the best set up possible under the circumstances. GO FOR IT!
ReplyDeleteThank you! This is just what I needed to hear. I did it, I registered! 10K, here I come!
DeleteYou can do it! I know the butterflies can be rough, but try to think of them as excited butterflies :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Lauren! You rock! I wonder if I'll have the butterflies all the way until June 8th??? LOL. I did it, I registered! It's official!
DeleteHa! Just popped over and saw my beloved Dorothy! (I'm from Kansas so she's kinda our icon!). Anyway, I think a lot of the country is getting this one last blast of cold. I'm SOO over it! Have a great week Karen! Love the blog and can't wait to read more!
ReplyDeleteOur Journey
Hi Sarah!!! I'm so glad you popped over, I had not run across your blog yet, which is unbelievable since I have about 50 of them I'm following on Bloglovin' already! LOL! I'm headed over to read yours now!
DeleteTrust in your training and BITE THE BULLET! :)
ReplyDeleteDONE! I registered and to make it REALLY finalized, I called my mom and told her about it and she's super excited to meet us (she lives in the town where the race is) and cheer us on. No turning back now. I got this, right?!?!!!! :)
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